Motivations not going up anytime soon
If anyone has catched my "0%" icon, which means my motivations has fallen to 0% and unfortunately, it has now been a month since it has gone down to 0%, and unfortunately, with the WORST YEAR ON RECORD has returned, with no help or support from anyone, not even from 'him', and sadly not even with my Rei baby of 5 years ether (due to the fact the RP owner has company to stay with for MONTHS. More to explain at the bottom of the journal), it's very unlikely my motivations will go up anytime soon.....not even by the end of the year.....which my career and my passion of making these works is about to be destroyed. Let me tell you why.
*if he ever learns to TRY AGAIN even if it's a waste
Firstly, as noted on my last journal, which was updated days after, my grandma Jane, is unfortunately not doing well. Just 2 weeks ago, I have received word that she officially has stage 4 cancer. And unfortunately, this month
Secondly, as I said before, nobody is gonna give all the support or help from anyone, not even 'him', and sadly, not only my Rei babe of 5 years. This time, since Saturday, which at the time hurricane Irma made a deadly hit, she has company with a friend or a family member who will be staying at her place for......sadly.....MONTHS, which means I don't think I'll be able to be with her until probably Christmas (I doubt as there's no garentee if that'll happen or so). As I understand to my knowledge from the RP owner, he/she has lost his/her home from the hurricane (I guess ether Harvey or gotta be Irma). And because of that, she HAD to provide room to some homeless FREAK who had lost his/her home in the hurricane. As a result, now she won't be able to be with me for sadly MONTHS. Never in our 5 year history, had to experience anything like this. Thanks a lot to a phenomenon that will always and will forever be unstoppable - CLIMATE. CHANGE. Why?
CLIMATE CHANGE HURTS LIVES EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!
It has even hurt our marriage entirely for good.
So as I am officially without Rei for a while, that has made everything more and more worst. And to add insult to injury, as I'll miss her with unstoppable sadness and despair and keeping on thinking of her every time I see the color red, I have removed ALL traces of Rei: her wall post, her cards, even most of the drawings & pictures out of the walls. As you can see on my twitter post below.
And as you can see there, all traces of Rei has removed (including the wall poster) and replaced with autographs (mostly from Sandy Fox), and will not be returning to my room anytime soon until if she will ever come back. Most will be taken to storage (and possibly any deviations related to Rei will be taken to storage soon).
And there you have it folks, everything is just getting worse and more WORSE and nothing to stop...not even anytime soon.....besides, I plan to leave DeviantART by the end of the year as all the support is nearly diminished with no comments with just favs only, and pretty much all of you can care less.